buterfly994

Everytime I see your picture Everytime I hear your name, I wana tare my heart right open, coz I cant seem to get you outa my brain. You left me there Just screaming at you with bloody tears running down my face. I believed your lies and for that  I am ashamed. I let you take my soul and for that I am to blame. So wont you pick up the peices of my broken heart.. wont you mend them together so no one can ever tare us apart.

It is that dark road leading to my heart. A songstress wrote about, love, life, pain and death. it is the monologe of my life, my bloody,ripped up diary. As if the words walked off the page, and with such rage they cut into my skin. Life seems sometimes so simple, and happyness sometimes to vain. My eyes so red my life so crowded that i had to strain to see past my suffering to push through the pain. My secrams were deffening i cried for help nobody answered nobody cared about how i felt.

I wish i could be with you, I wish I could stay away from you. It hurts, and you dont know how much. Everytime I see you a part of me breaks, I loose sight of reality Is loving you such a fatality? Id give anything for you. I would kill for you, but you dont care. I loved life, but now itys not fair. What does she have that I dont? How can I please you. I care for you. I love you.

Cut a little deeper. Hear me calling for you Come and join me cant you hear me weep. Even through your sleep I will be calling your name Its truly a shame.. your death. Cut, cut my princess I will be coming as you cry Come down with me come and stand by my side We will be together never will you die you will be here forever i promise i will leave you, never.

If roses meant love, Id shower you with them. If love was a tear, Id cry you an ocean. From the way you wear your hat. To the way you laugh. Its so unbelievably... perfect. i cant help it when i see you everyday. My face turns red and my heart melts. If love meant smiles, id make you laugh forever. If love meant kisses, I wouldnt let you breathe.

Slowly slicing past my vain. Blood peeking through my skin... My crimson ruler, Death. It comes ti me. Like a breath of stail air. Like a bullet, traveling right at my head. This is what ive been waiting for. My chance at sweet death. My chance to forget everything and everyone. Its over now.. Am I happy? Should I be? My mind races and my body trembles. The bullet pierces my skin. I slice right past my vain. I take my last breath with no regret. I taste my blood, and this I will never forget..... My suicide.

I wake up in the morning and go straight to my computer. Only to talk to you. Only to be your friend.... To be there for you. As that long waited word pops up on the screen. "morning" My my heart screams, my mouth creates a vage smile. Its....Odd. I called you that day... My heart was in my throat. Yet all I could do is smile. I couldnt believe it was you. The one that leads me to write this poem. Your love and your care. Im afraid I dont deserve it. You make me blush, but someimes you make me worried. Its you I care about. You listen to my advice, you liten to me..as a person. My graditude is huge. My love and respect

My thoughts are mixed. My feeling ripped away. I cant seem to controll myself. All I can di is just stand there..and stare, at my lifeless coarpse. Now Im finaly dead, carelessly dumped somewhere... im rotting away, and my soul is so bare. Its hard to see the light, or is there any at all. Who cares now.. Im no longer me. Im just soon to be, an other slave. The world passing by me.... All the years I lost. Stuck in one place. I thought I could change. I thought I could walk away, but I cant. Im stuck.